Eternal Spring [album]
Redemption*
I can’t let you walk into the fire
I can’t let you be sex-paranoid
And you turn it around
I can’t let you see me under the skin
And the civilized world at night it just slips away
We see the young man as beautiful, disturbed animal
So full of love it’s defenseless
Against the cruel world, against your world, against your world
Oh it just slips away
I can’t let you be somebody’s baby
The fear used to sleep at night under the stars
And you can’t see me naked
I feel like I’m pushing, but into the dark
And the civilized world at night it just slips away, finally naked
We see the young man as beautiful, disturbed animal
So full of love it’s defenseless
Against the cruel world, against your world, against your world
Oh it just slips away
Redemption…
*Note: The phrase “we see the young man as beautiful disturbed animal, so full of love it’s defenseless” is taken from a review of James Dean’s performance in East of Eden, printed at the time of the film’s release. I am currently trying to track down the journalist’s name.
Wilderness of the Heart
Loneliness it cuts like a knife when you’re out on the weekend
Poetry and lust in the shadow of love, is there something to prove?
You try and kiss the saints with sad songs, sing another tune
Something strong and sweet just to get me through the night
I have a fantasy of waking up, sometimes kids they can’t get enough
In this wilderness of the heart, would you go somewhere better, somewhere easy
And I was confused by those hours in the holy church
What do I stand, do I stand for? Am I clean or am I wicked?
But the look in his eyes, it was real as the solid ground
As I felt his love for her, I was touching faith in the back of my mind
I have a fantasy of waking up, sometimes kids they can’t get enough
In this wilderness of the heart, would you go somewhere better, somewhere easy
Restless when you leave me here, there’s a war inside I cannot reveal
Are we innocent from the start to walk this road to freedom, wilderness of the heart?
Without your love I’m nowhere at all, without your love
Did I dream you into being or did you chase me across time?
Believe the fantasies of waking up, I love you still but I’ve had enough
In this wilderness of the heart I have gone somewhere better, somewhere easy
Vanish when we leave it here, life it moves because love gets real
Can I free your pain with my words in this world unspoken, wilderness of the heart?
Rush
Rock and roll routine, without you and me
There’s just nothing to compare
Big city nights, bet you you shine bright
Cruising up and down the drive
And I want you to know the birds were singing for you now
And I want you to see the silence slipped into the scene
Movies on the screen…
And in this freedom rush, this final touch
I dreamed since I was young we could still be rebels
To be dancing on the edge of this eden afterworld
Sometimes rebel I think about the fall, I just can’t let it go
There’s no freedom in this life
There’s no freedom in what comes after life
I saw you in a dream, you got your little scene
Just like you did here on Earth
The vagabond hero now, what do they know anyhow?
They just see you as someone they can’t touch
And I want you to know the birds were singing for you now
And I want you to see the silence slipped into the scene
Movies on the screen…
And in this freedom rush, this final touch
I dreamed since I was young we could still be rebels
To be dancing on the edge of this eden afterworld
Sometimes rebel I think about the fall, I just gotta let it go
There’s real freedom in this life
There’s real freedom in what comes after life
I loved you in a dream, oh that’s the thing
Why did you have to leave me in the dark
Holding my broken heart
With the memory so far away?
And in this freedom rush, this final touch
I dreamed since I was young we could still be rebels
Eternal Spring
Well I guess you make me laugh
Make me cover my mouth in silence
Every time you talk
When I was young I wouldn’t stop
And don’t you need a promise
Or a story to defend?
I wouldn’t change you in the end
And I try to tell you but the words don’t come, Oh I
Try to tell you but the words don’t come…
Baby I love you but you’re breaking my heart
As your wild youth plays out on the radio
I don’t know what you want me to be
Is this vicious war or are we playing games now?
Run back to the house
Everything single night in my dreams
I go back to the place
I put this question on my face
And just like you
I’ve tried and I’ve tried it for years
I can’t play the normal game
I get a fever just the same, oh and I just
I feel emotion but it sometimes slides away, I
See emotion from you…
Your eternal spring is falling from your arms
As you look at me with eyes to young to believe
Death it comes and then innocence it goes
Is this really hate or are we playing games?
It feels like love, it ain’t nothing but the blues
Oh it’s freedom and it’s pain, baby it’s everything
A world to the dogs or just a beautiful release
Is this really love or are we playing games now?
You know I want you more than I need you now
Maybe that’s good somehow, maybe that’s how we get by
In the 21st century without love dragging us down
I said release me I want you but you’re breaking my heart
As your beautiful song plays out through my tears
In a world to the dogs I need a beautiful release
Is this really love or are we playing games now?
Don’t you know that I’m in love with you baby
And I can’t afford to lose you
I can’t afford this freedom in my world
Tell me love, were there days when you knew that this could be something?
And I promise you that I don’t see only shadows
But I’m aching for a reason
I’m aching for the freedom from the asking, “please”
Tell me love, were there days when you knew that there could be more to life than this?
The Fool
When the night is broken
And the bad kid comes home
Beat your wings under cover of dark
And the cigarettes they catch on like a fire
And you make me feel empty
From your side of the bed
Baby I don’t wanna hurt you
I just want you back into my hands
Baby I’ll play the fool
If your heart wants me to
‘Cause I’m not afraid of losing right now
I’m afraid of losing you
Yeah you stand outside me
But you changed me somehow
The bitter taste, I think it’s real love
But it’s nothing I can’t live without
And yeah I wanted
A little piece of the world
We lose ourselves in this circus of the living
But I want to, I need to somehow
Chorus
New Style
We try all new faces in the morning
We see all the phantoms coming out
We see all new faces in the morning
And hear all the brand new sounds
[spoken word poem by Matthias Bitzer]:
“I understand that I will not find what I love in what I do
But I understand that what I do is more necessary than what I love
I understand that the steams I have cut through have cut through me
I have merged and diffused into them”
Remember when you were a young boy
Twisting time upon your fate
Upon the backbone of condition
Total intrigue, fascination
Then the future felt like nothing
But inside that nothing, something
Pure conviction always racing
Across your best face, forward facing
And in this modern twist arises
A new world unchecked, alive in
Liquid sexes, shifting races
Complex mirrors changing faces
And through a backdoor lost in memory
You found a key to time unending
New Style emerging from the thrill
Life never dies, it never will
Revolution
Every single morning I wake up with the feeling
That I raised up the demons in you
But I know it’s not true
They were just there waiting
Like everybody else on Earth I know you’re searching
For the hidden face of God
In the everyday hero
Does it stare back at you
When you look into the mirror or do you feel shame?
Could I really change you? Would I really want to?
The revolution that you gave me
Was just a brilliant vice and maybe
You’ll be happy for now till the demons come out
And you’re searching my eyes for some more
And you can’t stop getting closer
You feel the real thing coming over you
In the morning you’ll go ‘cause you let your walls down
Let another one into your life, some savior for the night
Driving back home with a broken heart
I start to take the moments apart
And see clearly who you are
Or more clearly who you aren’t
‘Cause I was raised to believe in love
And the promise of the only word
Pouring over me like virgin silk
I can’t remember how the feeling feels
Tempted by a promise, conflicted by peace
The brotherhood of waking up, the brotherhood of losing sleep
The revolution that you gave me
Was just a broken heart and maybe
You’ll be happy for now till the demons come out
And you’re searching my eyes for some more
And you can’t stop getting closer
You feel the real thing coming over you
In the morning you’ll go ‘cause you let your walls down
Let another one into your life, some savior for the night
Savior for the weekend, savior for the night
Savior for the weekend and for the rest of your life
…and if I turn my head I am never looking back…
The revolution that you gave me
Was just a breaking wave and maybe
You’ll be happy for now till the demons come out
And you’re searching my eyes for some more
No you can’t stop getting closer
You feel the real thing coming over you
In the morning you’ll go ‘cause you let your walls down
Let another one into your life, some savior for the night
Savior for the night, savior for the night
Some savior for the weekend and for the rest of your life
…you know you stopped me ten seconds from madness
I was walking out the front door whistling a song about love…
Valentino
Won’t you be my valentine, understanding why you need to need me
Shapeless form from far away, changing in the darkness you get closer
Not like other animals, knowledge of the past, present, future
Watching as your world comes down, crashing on the pavement you get happy
Dancer smells like cigarettes, body heat and the sweat upon the plastic
As you work into my view, and I’m seeing maybe holes come in my logic
It’s my heart it won’t break…
Won’t you be my bodyguard, protect me from the deadbeats in the forest
Won’t you be my fantasy, the rhythm starts with a beat and you get stronger
Someone held in high regard, like the queen or maybe the prince or something better
We will live like fairytales, the rhythm starts with a beat and then gets stronger
It’s my heart it won’t break…
Oh the peace of the nomad, held together by a spit and a prayer
And I wanted to fly, all the birds twisting by, my Valentino
I can’t chase you anymore
As you looked to the sky saw the light in your eyes, oh what do I know?
I want what everybody wants
Broken with sin at your door let me in, I’m the wreckage
I can’t be this anymore
I’ll open my arms and I’ll let down my guard, my Valentino
I want what everybody wants
What does everybody need?
(faith and love)
We need a shelter and a home
What does everybody want?
I need someone I can believe
Oh I will give you everything
I’d ask for nothing in return
Oh I will give you everything
(a light in the dark)
I’d ask for nothing in return
Tomorrow, nothing from you tomorrow
For nothing
Acid & Tender
There goes the neighborhood
There goes the monkey on my back through the streets
An acid and tender love
A highland miracle caught in between
And how do you do what you do
On the backstreets in trainers with a shaved head, you
You don’t dare come undone under the gun
And you would fly twice, through grace then from this life
A local boy still blooming in transition
All of these years I was living for your love
Release from a shadow in me
And the English boys they are living on champagne
I feel so alive but sometimes I feel nothing
All of these years I was living for your love
That’s release from a shadow, white teeth from a shadow
The food chain of everywhere
As soon as it’s born it’s dead, that’s the deal
Come out and walk the streets
Come feel the raw energy of the smoke
And how do you do what you do
A hooligan and someone who uses a needle, that’s you
Weaving life under the sun
And you would burn bright through art and through your life
A local boy still blooming in transition
All of these years I was living for your love
Release from a shadow in me
And the English birds they are living on champagne
I feel so alive but sometimes I feel nothing
All of these years I was living for your love
That’s release from a shadow, white teeth from a shadow
And all of this young stuff swimming in your heart
I feel so alive but sometimes I feel nothing
Kissed by the sun but nothing in between
That’s release from a shadow, white teeth from a shadow
..what is heaven? A place to wonder, a place inside…
You want proof of God?
You are proof of God
You want proof of God?
You are proof of God
You want proof of love?
You are proof of love
You want proof of God?
You are proof of God
Ramos Improv Suite
[instrumental]